A lot of bad things happened to my family and I recently. I got myself wounded during the trip to Singapore. My brother and I were trapped at the middle of two country for some reason. Though we were finally back to Malaysia saftly. However, with totally exausted mind and body, Shao En finally got sick yesterday. The trip back to Singapore was like a nightmare to me.. To be honest, I was really scared, but my brother was with me so I kept telling myself not to give up or just be scared of these little things.
And I thought everything has ended, but it isn't. My family is constantly losing some little amount of money. Usually it isn't something so important. But considering the continuning loses, we found it was something we must really aware of. Mom looks really scary (Seems annoying to me) these day. We went to my new school this morning and spent 20k for my school fees and some other charges.. 20k.. How scary.. I just couldn't look at my mom, I felt as if I did something wrong to her. I got to work harder, harder and harder..
Yesterday, I walked to Tesco because I need to print my passort photoes. It took me 4 hours. Not a big deal? Yeah.. Only if I wasn't told to go to the wrong way after waiting for a stupid bus for half and an hour. After spending so much time, I finally got back home. During my way home, I thought I could have got robbed or killed by some Malay bikers or some Chinese robbers since I had been extremely unlucky these day... Who knows? Haha..
Somehow, when I was resting on my bed with my eyes closed yesterday. I thought, 'I'm back.. I got my wound cured even though Shao En got sick, I sucessfully brough him back to mom anyway..'
I don't know.. Whenever these bad things happened on me, I suppose to get angry and blame for nothing, but at the end, I ended up with no hatred in mind. I just refused to think and act that way.. I told myself to stand up and fight. I can't afford to lose. Anger means nothing and work nothing on my unfortunate life. And so, I clam myself and stand up again.
People around always say I'm a fortunate kid. My dad is rich(?) and my mom is kind(?). Hmpt.. They knew nothing. I hate myself being born differently. If I was born poor, I would have got lots of 'A' because I have NO PSP and COMPUTER in my life. Things get confused when people start asking me to thank for my fortuante life, but to me, how? They don't understand...
Hope everything would get better.. Cheers for myself!
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