Xuan Zi, Wang Zi, Hong Zi.....

  "Can I call you 'Hong Zi'?" (My name is Hong Shao Wei) Ryan asked me. I'm surprised. I've never thought of making a person's nickname because I thought it's rude and uneccessary. But then, I came to think of that, "Maybe I should accpet his request for calling me'Hong Zi'?" And so, I was called Hong Zi. But in return of my favour, I call him Xuan Zi. (Ryan's name is Huo Sheng Xuan) Even Kevin couldn't escape the fact that he's called Wang Zi  from now on. Interesting, huh?

  Anyway, I don't hate them. Somehow I think they have got an effect that bring people closer. So, I kinda enjoy by that. But, my friends outside from school, don't you ever call me 'Hong Zi'. I feel embarrass by that. -__-''

  We three are always together.. Or maybe not. It's because of Wang Zi..

  I don't know if he really cares about his friend. Indeed he's a good person but a person lack of sensation, who can't think much. Actually, people don't have to think that much, but when it comes to relationship, you gotta be smart. Because of him, I felt myself as if I'm an extra exist when we three are together. Sometimes, I wait the two of them after I had finished my dinner. To Wang Zi, he waits only Xuan Zi.. That's what upset me. It really hurts and I really hate that! Just how bias he could be? What gets my nerves is that he never knew I got hurt by his actions. Wang Zi always walk with Xuan Zi. And if Xuan Zi disappear, he would ask where does he go? But to me, he never ask.. Ok, maybe I'm not his friend.. It just me considering him as my friend... What a fool I am...

  Somehow I come to realize that if Xuan Zi is an active exist, then I might be a silent exist. And so, my job is when they are tired hanging outside wih friends, telling jokes to make people laugh, laughing at something that isn't that funny, I shall become their place of resting... I give them a silent, personal space. I also gift them a place where the only three of us could enter. It shall be a place where they can be true to themselve and relief from all stresses they got outside.

  When I finally clearance when duty of being one of them, I feel much better...


  Wang Zi, Xuan Zi, saranghae~