Many times, we humans are to change. Weather you're forced or not, changing yourself, whereas at your using of language and feeling of yourself, is an essential thing in life.
Recently, many people said that I'd changed, in a good way. I wander if that's really good for me or not, but for now, I'm perfectly fine..
I came to realize how important for me to praise someone. Praising is blessing. Who doesn't like being praise? Well, I don't either! I find that to praise, would not only raise others up but also yourself, so why not give praise? If that really worth praising, why not?
I love them, haha.. I always do.. Treasure the precious. Learned.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Happiness
This is the moment I felt so much happiness... I shall mark this down :)
Happy Birthday, Mum..
I love you guys, either CTS or Malaysians, I love and treasure you all the time
Thanks to you x3
Happy Birthday, Mum..
I love you guys, either CTS or Malaysians, I love and treasure you all the time
Thanks to you x3
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Holidays!!
It has been sooooooooooo long! I don't even have the time to update my blog ever since May..
The result of English drama was fantastic! Our team won Best Drama, Best Story, Best Costume and Best Actress. Best Actor went to Joesph, of course, he is talented as always plus his fluent pronounciation in English, no doubt he could get that award. Best Actress went to Jem! Surprisingly, she was liked a amateur in acting during the rehearsal, who was then changed into someone that caught everyone's attention during the actual performance. Congratulation to all of us and thanks for the hardwork we did. This would be a best memory for Teacher Lisa, whom my English conversation teacher, after she quit the school.
The graduation ceremony was boring.. Well.. I must congratulated the seniors who had been facing some stressful exams and finally relieved from work. Congratulations! The whole ceremony thing took about 3 hours, which made me a little unpatient, but everyone leave the hall with smile. I could say that should be a happy ending? Or maybe not.. I just couldn't got my eyes off from them.. How jealous and envious was I.. But nothing's gonna change.. That was my last thought before I went home with a pack of smelly Nasi Lemak I sneaked from school canteen..
Oh.. I forgot to mentioned the party for the graduates.. That night was totally insane! Everyone was crazy for the musics and performances. When my class was reviewing the photoes they took at the night, no one thought that smoky place with flashing lights around would be our school hall, haha! Ofcourse, watching the thanks-giving and blessing video was the last show that night. The video showed lots of memory of the graduates. I could sense some people were sniffering, though I didn't cry, I felt the same as them. It was a crazy, happy, exciting, saddening and heart-touching night!
The final exam of the year soon came after the party and ceremony things. I could say I only put my 60% into this. I could have prepared one week ago, but despite of my lazy character, I started my study 2 days before exam. I must say, that 2 days of preparation + 2 days of exam made me totally exhausted. I regretted for not preparing earlier beofre exam. The result wasn't that good.. Some of them reached my expectation, however, some not. My Mandarin is as always, marks between 65~75. English, I hope it wasn't too bad, maybe 90+? I never wish to get below 95... Hope Teacher Steve would spare me some mark base on the hardwork I did in his lesson and politely smile I gave whenever I see him. Biology was bad! I expected to get above 80 but I only got 60! That was unbelievable! The subject I most confident in failed my high expectation! I must be over confident during the exam... No 60 after holiday!!! Physic, Damn! I couldn't even scored 40! 33 marks means I will be forced to attent tuition during the next seminar. Chemistry was the best ever improved subject! Starting from 24, 40 to now 58! I could score a higher mark if I got enough time. Seriously, my Chemistry proved that god rewards those who really work hard for it. Keep myself up! Cause the next few months would be counting down the day to 八甄!!
Oh Kevin.. Now that you leave.. I wander if you recieved the message I leave on your table? Appreciated? Afraid? Suprised? Or does it even matter? Whatever the outcome is, I already said what I have thinking to say when I heard you're leaving. Wish you all the best on your future and please don't come back to CTS! If you do, I will make you regret! -_________-'' Well, I already said goodbye and wish you good luck so please don't ever appear in front of me unless you wanna say thanks to everything I did for you. Dumb! Don't be a fool when you leave! Never be a stupid outside! Be smart and take care of yourself -_____-
Finally.. It's holidays!! I shall work harder and harder! Tressure the little time left for me and work for the best result!!!
The result of English drama was fantastic! Our team won Best Drama, Best Story, Best Costume and Best Actress. Best Actor went to Joesph, of course, he is talented as always plus his fluent pronounciation in English, no doubt he could get that award. Best Actress went to Jem! Surprisingly, she was liked a amateur in acting during the rehearsal, who was then changed into someone that caught everyone's attention during the actual performance. Congratulation to all of us and thanks for the hardwork we did. This would be a best memory for Teacher Lisa, whom my English conversation teacher, after she quit the school.
The graduation ceremony was boring.. Well.. I must congratulated the seniors who had been facing some stressful exams and finally relieved from work. Congratulations! The whole ceremony thing took about 3 hours, which made me a little unpatient, but everyone leave the hall with smile. I could say that should be a happy ending? Or maybe not.. I just couldn't got my eyes off from them.. How jealous and envious was I.. But nothing's gonna change.. That was my last thought before I went home with a pack of smelly Nasi Lemak I sneaked from school canteen..
Oh.. I forgot to mentioned the party for the graduates.. That night was totally insane! Everyone was crazy for the musics and performances. When my class was reviewing the photoes they took at the night, no one thought that smoky place with flashing lights around would be our school hall, haha! Ofcourse, watching the thanks-giving and blessing video was the last show that night. The video showed lots of memory of the graduates. I could sense some people were sniffering, though I didn't cry, I felt the same as them. It was a crazy, happy, exciting, saddening and heart-touching night!
The final exam of the year soon came after the party and ceremony things. I could say I only put my 60% into this. I could have prepared one week ago, but despite of my lazy character, I started my study 2 days before exam. I must say, that 2 days of preparation + 2 days of exam made me totally exhausted. I regretted for not preparing earlier beofre exam. The result wasn't that good.. Some of them reached my expectation, however, some not. My Mandarin is as always, marks between 65~75. English, I hope it wasn't too bad, maybe 90+? I never wish to get below 95... Hope Teacher Steve would spare me some mark base on the hardwork I did in his lesson and politely smile I gave whenever I see him. Biology was bad! I expected to get above 80 but I only got 60! That was unbelievable! The subject I most confident in failed my high expectation! I must be over confident during the exam... No 60 after holiday!!! Physic, Damn! I couldn't even scored 40! 33 marks means I will be forced to attent tuition during the next seminar. Chemistry was the best ever improved subject! Starting from 24, 40 to now 58! I could score a higher mark if I got enough time. Seriously, my Chemistry proved that god rewards those who really work hard for it. Keep myself up! Cause the next few months would be counting down the day to 八甄!!
Oh Kevin.. Now that you leave.. I wander if you recieved the message I leave on your table? Appreciated? Afraid? Suprised? Or does it even matter? Whatever the outcome is, I already said what I have thinking to say when I heard you're leaving. Wish you all the best on your future and please don't come back to CTS! If you do, I will make you regret! -_________-'' Well, I already said goodbye and wish you good luck so please don't ever appear in front of me unless you wanna say thanks to everything I did for you. Dumb! Don't be a fool when you leave! Never be a stupid outside! Be smart and take care of yourself -_____-
Finally.. It's holidays!! I shall work harder and harder! Tressure the little time left for me and work for the best result!!!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
The busy days!
English drama, graduation ceremony and the coming end of year exam. It will be a very busy week..
I felt kinda down in the dumps yesterday, because I saw her sending SMS. I shouldn't have thought too much. I shall give my best wishes if they really like each other.
Yesterday, too, I had a talk with teacher Din. She hoped I could understand what pressure I might be facing in future is something mighty, heavy and scary. I totally got her.. Now, all I want to do now is not to let my mom worry anymore.
I felt kinda down in the dumps yesterday, because I saw her sending SMS. I shouldn't have thought too much. I shall give my best wishes if they really like each other.
Yesterday, too, I had a talk with teacher Din. She hoped I could understand what pressure I might be facing in future is something mighty, heavy and scary. I totally got her.. Now, all I want to do now is not to let my mom worry anymore.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Excitement
Something's really exciting. Without a reason, I just know.
It's a feeling, feeling of being noticed by someone you care a lot.
However, is my feelings truly right on that? I can't certain.
What I know is, I must do well in my job, then, while I have the time, to love others.
All the best to myself!
It's a feeling, feeling of being noticed by someone you care a lot.
However, is my feelings truly right on that? I can't certain.
What I know is, I must do well in my job, then, while I have the time, to love others.
All the best to myself!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Common Test 2
Finally, another common test is coming. Time goes really fast, it has been 3 months since I came to this school. I keep reminding myself that I have only a little time left only to make myself clear from stepping into further darkness. Thanks god, now I'm still awakened..
The more I love K, the more I care. It can't be stop. William told me not to do silly things as everyone is watching. I didn't know what he meant by that but I quess it's something threathening to me. After a talk with Danny had made me felt so much better. He said, ' Just do whatever you want if you're happy doing it.' I think, ' Yeah!' That's how it came to my final conclusion. I will continue to love K, no matter what. But before that, I shall love myself more first. I promised teacher Tsai to love myself even more so that I will never be blind by myslef.
The first thing to start loving myself is to concentrate on my study!
All the best, Shao Wei! You can do it!
The more I love K, the more I care. It can't be stop. William told me not to do silly things as everyone is watching. I didn't know what he meant by that but I quess it's something threathening to me. After a talk with Danny had made me felt so much better. He said, ' Just do whatever you want if you're happy doing it.' I think, ' Yeah!' That's how it came to my final conclusion. I will continue to love K, no matter what. But before that, I shall love myself more first. I promised teacher Tsai to love myself even more so that I will never be blind by myslef.
The first thing to start loving myself is to concentrate on my study!
All the best, Shao Wei! You can do it!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
我存在著 :)
做自己就好..
晨鳳老師說我很特別, 因為她還是第一次遇到我這種學生..
被老師說太像小孩, 太純真? ( 哈 )
老師很擔心我吃虧.. 我明白.. 謝謝老師 :)
還有冠存.. ㄜ...... 他希望我不要太白痴.. 這是關心吧? ㄏ :) 我懂他的意思. 會注意的.
威霖.. 哈, 真的很可愛喔.. 可是又成熟. 我要多學習.. Wiwiwiwiwilliam~ Saranghae, haha.
蔡老師.. 唉喲! 麥安ㄋ啦! 吼! 整天噹我 -________- 可還是謝謝你的關心啦 : )
我知道.. 一直知道.. 誰真正的關心我... 真的很感激.. 紹惟會加油! Fighting!
Being myself isn't right? Sometimes, I'm confused. To be yourself isn't something difficult; instead, it's surprisingly easy to find that being oneself is something so simple to do.. But sometimes, people want you not to be yourself too much; they hope you'd change. People usually change to adapt a new enviroment and I believe I already did. Maybe my changes seems too little from them? I should comtemplate about it.
My feelings to K is sooooooooooo weired.. I care about K, but I doubt if I love K. You see, love and like are different. I find my feelings to K is something like a mother to her child.. I want K lives a happy life, I wish K will be fine going to Australia.. I like K's smile, but I hate it when K forget K's to moving to an English country and instead of playing, shouldn't K starting to improve K's English? Going to see K on Monday, hope everything will be fine..
運動會成功! 藍隊勝利!!! 精神總錦標萬歲!!!!!
Blue house stands! Congratulation to all the Blue house members! Thanks for all your hardwork! ^o^!
晨鳳老師說我很特別, 因為她還是第一次遇到我這種學生..
被老師說太像小孩, 太純真? ( 哈 )
老師很擔心我吃虧.. 我明白.. 謝謝老師 :)
還有冠存.. ㄜ...... 他希望我不要太白痴.. 這是關心吧? ㄏ :) 我懂他的意思. 會注意的.
威霖.. 哈, 真的很可愛喔.. 可是又成熟. 我要多學習.. Wiwiwiwiwilliam~ Saranghae, haha.
蔡老師.. 唉喲! 麥安ㄋ啦! 吼! 整天噹我 -________- 可還是謝謝你的關心啦 : )
我知道.. 一直知道.. 誰真正的關心我... 真的很感激.. 紹惟會加油! Fighting!
Being myself isn't right? Sometimes, I'm confused. To be yourself isn't something difficult; instead, it's surprisingly easy to find that being oneself is something so simple to do.. But sometimes, people want you not to be yourself too much; they hope you'd change. People usually change to adapt a new enviroment and I believe I already did. Maybe my changes seems too little from them? I should comtemplate about it.
My feelings to K is sooooooooooo weired.. I care about K, but I doubt if I love K. You see, love and like are different. I find my feelings to K is something like a mother to her child.. I want K lives a happy life, I wish K will be fine going to Australia.. I like K's smile, but I hate it when K forget K's to moving to an English country and instead of playing, shouldn't K starting to improve K's English? Going to see K on Monday, hope everything will be fine..
運動會成功! 藍隊勝利!!! 精神總錦標萬歲!!!!!
Blue house stands! Congratulation to all the Blue house members! Thanks for all your hardwork! ^o^!
Friday, March 19, 2010
I hate no one..
Hah, humans are funny creature, aren't they? They change their attitude towards people alwaysly.
I hate no one now. Funny enough? Just as nothing had happened, I stand once again..!
I hate no one now. Funny enough? Just as nothing had happened, I stand once again..!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
The truth befind those so-called 'friends'
They backstab you. They understimate you. They black mouth behind you. Saying your gift sucks. Telling people you're a sucker. Don't give a damn to you. No greets, thankful or apologies. A selfish person who turn back to you. A terrible person who deeply hurts you. A person who is cruel to me.. A person who deserves a thousand death and not worth forgiveness... I hate you.. Whatever I've done, is not what you think.
It's not the way you think that I like you. I like you in some way that only I used to be. I don't want you to dislike me, so I'd hold back. I never fall in love with you, you had been thinking too much. It's just love from a friend, that's it. You are seriously sick.. You are incredible to have friends because for a person like you deserve nothing..
Curse you.. Hate you.. But what else can I do? I'm all alone and powerless... Man.....
This is disgusting.. People are granted.. This is sick, people are selfish after all........
I love only myself and those who loves me...... For him, he's not my friend anymore, I shall abandon him and let him does whatever he likes. After all, it's his bussiness. I don't care if he needs my help or others help. I shall tell my friends to stay away from him before they get hurt like me...............
It's not the way you think that I like you. I like you in some way that only I used to be. I don't want you to dislike me, so I'd hold back. I never fall in love with you, you had been thinking too much. It's just love from a friend, that's it. You are seriously sick.. You are incredible to have friends because for a person like you deserve nothing..
Curse you.. Hate you.. But what else can I do? I'm all alone and powerless... Man.....
This is disgusting.. People are granted.. This is sick, people are selfish after all........
I love only myself and those who loves me...... For him, he's not my friend anymore, I shall abandon him and let him does whatever he likes. After all, it's his bussiness. I don't care if he needs my help or others help. I shall tell my friends to stay away from him before they get hurt like me...............
Friday, March 12, 2010
Feel like...
I feel like hugging Ryan recently..
He looked tired when we were doing our night studies at the school libarary. He had been liked that for this whole week. I'm not pity about his tireness but somehow I feel bad when he looks unhappy or tired. So I try to hug him more. Hope that would help.
Once a professor talked about what human beings should be doing eaeryday, and that includes hugging seven people a day... I found myself need a hug sometime.. I'm not eager for a girlfriend to hug me or what, somehow it might turn into me hugging her, which doesn't get what I want. Indeed, I'm too tall for them..
Seeing my friends being streesed and exhausted from works is something really saddening.. Even though I should be worrying about myself, I feel it a duty of mine to embrace them. Same to them, I hope they would come and embrace me whenver I'm down for stresses. This is how I define a true friend is, a person who always encourage you, making you feel better.
I feel like beating Kevin recently, but I just can't. Not even a sorry from him after I scolded him for ignoring my good to him. I understand he is the type of person who sucks when talking about relationship. It's not like he's a sucker but he's not good at handling this kind of situation.. I souldn't be angry for that, should I? Or should I treat him better? Letting him know that I truly care for him so he should aware and be appreciated of what I did. People don't usually ask for return after they help someone. All I want is a "Thank you" after I clean his table and bring his coats back to the dorm, a "Hello" when we meet early in the morning or a "Sorry" whenever I get hurt by him. It jsut that simple........
I thank you Ryan for listening to me, William for helping my work, Oscar for bringing me a joyful day, Leo for giving a feel of a dad, Kevin for giving me his best looks everyday and the rest for giving me so much love... Thank you everyone ! :)
He looked tired when we were doing our night studies at the school libarary. He had been liked that for this whole week. I'm not pity about his tireness but somehow I feel bad when he looks unhappy or tired. So I try to hug him more. Hope that would help.
Once a professor talked about what human beings should be doing eaeryday, and that includes hugging seven people a day... I found myself need a hug sometime.. I'm not eager for a girlfriend to hug me or what, somehow it might turn into me hugging her, which doesn't get what I want. Indeed, I'm too tall for them..
Seeing my friends being streesed and exhausted from works is something really saddening.. Even though I should be worrying about myself, I feel it a duty of mine to embrace them. Same to them, I hope they would come and embrace me whenver I'm down for stresses. This is how I define a true friend is, a person who always encourage you, making you feel better.
I feel like beating Kevin recently, but I just can't. Not even a sorry from him after I scolded him for ignoring my good to him. I understand he is the type of person who sucks when talking about relationship. It's not like he's a sucker but he's not good at handling this kind of situation.. I souldn't be angry for that, should I? Or should I treat him better? Letting him know that I truly care for him so he should aware and be appreciated of what I did. People don't usually ask for return after they help someone. All I want is a "Thank you" after I clean his table and bring his coats back to the dorm, a "Hello" when we meet early in the morning or a "Sorry" whenever I get hurt by him. It jsut that simple........
I thank you Ryan for listening to me, William for helping my work, Oscar for bringing me a joyful day, Leo for giving a feel of a dad, Kevin for giving me his best looks everyday and the rest for giving me so much love... Thank you everyone ! :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Jelousy
I.. totally forgot my own duty here.. I got distracted..
I hate myself whenever I do things half-way, so I told myself that this time, I
would change. But, I don't...
I hate it when they're talking, whispering with some fun without letting me know. Why should I care? But why not let me care? It's none of my business, but it IS my business to look after my friend. I'm not trying to do thing that go over the border line. It just that, I hate it when people aren't themselves when lots of people are around them. What mean is that people change for getting accpetance from other people. I wish I could be the person that can make them true to themselve. But the truth is always hurt.. Maybe I souldn't have taken this role...
I hate myself whenever I do things half-way, so I told myself that this time, I
would change. But, I don't...
I hate it when they're talking, whispering with some fun without letting me know. Why should I care? But why not let me care? It's none of my business, but it IS my business to look after my friend. I'm not trying to do thing that go over the border line. It just that, I hate it when people aren't themselves when lots of people are around them. What mean is that people change for getting accpetance from other people. I wish I could be the person that can make them true to themselve. But the truth is always hurt.. Maybe I souldn't have taken this role...
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Xuan Zi, Wang Zi, Hong Zi.....
"Can I call you 'Hong Zi'?" (My name is Hong Shao Wei) Ryan asked me. I'm surprised. I've never thought of making a person's nickname because I thought it's rude and uneccessary. But then, I came to think of that, "Maybe I should accpet his request for calling me'Hong Zi'?" And so, I was called Hong Zi. But in return of my favour, I call him Xuan Zi. (Ryan's name is Huo Sheng Xuan) Even Kevin couldn't escape the fact that he's called Wang Zi from now on. Interesting, huh?
Anyway, I don't hate them. Somehow I think they have got an effect that bring people closer. So, I kinda enjoy by that. But, my friends outside from school, don't you ever call me 'Hong Zi'. I feel embarrass by that. -__-''
We three are always together.. Or maybe not. It's because of Wang Zi..
I don't know if he really cares about his friend. Indeed he's a good person but a person lack of sensation, who can't think much. Actually, people don't have to think that much, but when it comes to relationship, you gotta be smart. Because of him, I felt myself as if I'm an extra exist when we three are together. Sometimes, I wait the two of them after I had finished my dinner. To Wang Zi, he waits only Xuan Zi.. That's what upset me. It really hurts and I really hate that! Just how bias he could be? What gets my nerves is that he never knew I got hurt by his actions. Wang Zi always walk with Xuan Zi. And if Xuan Zi disappear, he would ask where does he go? But to me, he never ask.. Ok, maybe I'm not his friend.. It just me considering him as my friend... What a fool I am...
Somehow I come to realize that if Xuan Zi is an active exist, then I might be a silent exist. And so, my job is when they are tired hanging outside wih friends, telling jokes to make people laugh, laughing at something that isn't that funny, I shall become their place of resting... I give them a silent, personal space. I also gift them a place where the only three of us could enter. It shall be a place where they can be true to themselve and relief from all stresses they got outside.
When I finally clearance when duty of being one of them, I feel much better...
Wang Zi, Xuan Zi, saranghae~
Anyway, I don't hate them. Somehow I think they have got an effect that bring people closer. So, I kinda enjoy by that. But, my friends outside from school, don't you ever call me 'Hong Zi'. I feel embarrass by that. -__-''
We three are always together.. Or maybe not. It's because of Wang Zi..
I don't know if he really cares about his friend. Indeed he's a good person but a person lack of sensation, who can't think much. Actually, people don't have to think that much, but when it comes to relationship, you gotta be smart. Because of him, I felt myself as if I'm an extra exist when we three are together. Sometimes, I wait the two of them after I had finished my dinner. To Wang Zi, he waits only Xuan Zi.. That's what upset me. It really hurts and I really hate that! Just how bias he could be? What gets my nerves is that he never knew I got hurt by his actions. Wang Zi always walk with Xuan Zi. And if Xuan Zi disappear, he would ask where does he go? But to me, he never ask.. Ok, maybe I'm not his friend.. It just me considering him as my friend... What a fool I am...
Somehow I come to realize that if Xuan Zi is an active exist, then I might be a silent exist. And so, my job is when they are tired hanging outside wih friends, telling jokes to make people laugh, laughing at something that isn't that funny, I shall become their place of resting... I give them a silent, personal space. I also gift them a place where the only three of us could enter. It shall be a place where they can be true to themselve and relief from all stresses they got outside.
When I finally clearance when duty of being one of them, I feel much better...
Wang Zi, Xuan Zi, saranghae~
Saturday, February 27, 2010
I'm so excited and happy now ^___^
First, I finally moved into the school dorm. Everything was a bit old but it was really comfortable to live. I brough only 3 sets of clothes as I thought I was there to study so I didn't spend so much time on my choices of clothes. I was soon regretted for not bring more fabulous clothes as I saw Shao En's roommate had so many things, including several shoes and clothes in many colours. I envious him. And so I wrote down the things I have got to bring to my room when I get home on Thursday.
Two people share the room with me. One guy from Korean, same class with me, greeted me as soon he got into the room and I thought he is such gentle guy. His name is Jian Xiong, or Joseph Lee. His image soon destroyed after we were in our classroom the next morning. The meaning by' image destroyed' because he isn't the first guy I met yesterday, he turned into a big talker and continued to talk talk talk. Well, I don't hate it. Somehow I think he is kinda cute, haha. He enjoys playing around with his friends. I specially remenbered that he kept asking for 'bobo'(kiss) from his friends. Haha, that was so funny because no one gave him a damn. We didn't talk a lot since then. He and I are like different magnetic fields. I'm the silent guy in front of everyone. He's the opposite of it. Guess he might thought I'm difficult to get along with?
Another guy is a Taiwanese. He only talks a little. But he seems to be close with many people, even Jian Xiong. Hmn.. I have never seen a guy sleeping with another guy, hugging each other and mur mur somethings unimportant. Well, this guy did these with Jian Xiong. His name is Zi Hao, a junior3 student. I don't know much about him but after day by day, I find him actually a really nice guy. Maybe I was blinded by my first image of him. Something to clarify, Zi Hao and Jian Xiong aren't gay, they're just good friend. Hope I didn't give out the wrong information of these two new guys I met.
One of Shao En's roommate is my classmate too! A very handsome guy from Indonesia. He's a half Taiwanese and a half Indonesian. People said children born out to be pretty if the baby's blood is mixed. I guess they are right. I'm kinda envious of his gorgeous look. He's a very honest and gentle guy. He was the first person I met in the school dorm. I have no worries for Shao En whenever he's around. His name is Jia Wang. Our form teacher called him 'Prince Oil' because his father sells oil, indirectly saying that he's damn rich! Wow! It's cool to have a classmate like him. I think he's really relyable. Not only me but every teachers like him. It is fun to see how everyone make fun of his wealthy family background by saying '有錢了不起!'to him. Haha.
My new school rocks.. Everyone in the school are close. There's no border between people. It's so free and happy to live with them everyday. I felt like I have finally made a right decision after I was officially become one of this big family.
Just to express how much I love this school!
I returned home after sister Xiu Qing's final new year party. I was tired but then enjoyed being there. I got some new ang pow though the values of it were so small, I appreciate their wishes to me. Wish all of them a happy new year. The climax of this whole event was the rising of Kong Ming Latern. Each of us wrote our wishes on the latern and then, gathered with everyone's wishes, rised it up by using the fire. The latern was made softly and lightly so it was really easy to let it float by just making a small flame under and inside the latern itself. The hot air brough our hopes highly up into the sky and faded slowly into the beautiful night with the guide of the big round moon.
I'm so happy to have my friends with me.. Our love to each other shall exist eternally with our spirits. My friend, saranghae~!(I love you~) ^__________________^ ~
Two people share the room with me. One guy from Korean, same class with me, greeted me as soon he got into the room and I thought he is such gentle guy. His name is Jian Xiong, or Joseph Lee. His image soon destroyed after we were in our classroom the next morning. The meaning by' image destroyed' because he isn't the first guy I met yesterday, he turned into a big talker and continued to talk talk talk. Well, I don't hate it. Somehow I think he is kinda cute, haha. He enjoys playing around with his friends. I specially remenbered that he kept asking for 'bobo'(kiss) from his friends. Haha, that was so funny because no one gave him a damn. We didn't talk a lot since then. He and I are like different magnetic fields. I'm the silent guy in front of everyone. He's the opposite of it. Guess he might thought I'm difficult to get along with?
Another guy is a Taiwanese. He only talks a little. But he seems to be close with many people, even Jian Xiong. Hmn.. I have never seen a guy sleeping with another guy, hugging each other and mur mur somethings unimportant. Well, this guy did these with Jian Xiong. His name is Zi Hao, a junior3 student. I don't know much about him but after day by day, I find him actually a really nice guy. Maybe I was blinded by my first image of him. Something to clarify, Zi Hao and Jian Xiong aren't gay, they're just good friend. Hope I didn't give out the wrong information of these two new guys I met.
One of Shao En's roommate is my classmate too! A very handsome guy from Indonesia. He's a half Taiwanese and a half Indonesian. People said children born out to be pretty if the baby's blood is mixed. I guess they are right. I'm kinda envious of his gorgeous look. He's a very honest and gentle guy. He was the first person I met in the school dorm. I have no worries for Shao En whenever he's around. His name is Jia Wang. Our form teacher called him 'Prince Oil' because his father sells oil, indirectly saying that he's damn rich! Wow! It's cool to have a classmate like him. I think he's really relyable. Not only me but every teachers like him. It is fun to see how everyone make fun of his wealthy family background by saying '有錢了不起!'to him. Haha.
My new school rocks.. Everyone in the school are close. There's no border between people. It's so free and happy to live with them everyday. I felt like I have finally made a right decision after I was officially become one of this big family.
Just to express how much I love this school!
I returned home after sister Xiu Qing's final new year party. I was tired but then enjoyed being there. I got some new ang pow though the values of it were so small, I appreciate their wishes to me. Wish all of them a happy new year. The climax of this whole event was the rising of Kong Ming Latern. Each of us wrote our wishes on the latern and then, gathered with everyone's wishes, rised it up by using the fire. The latern was made softly and lightly so it was really easy to let it float by just making a small flame under and inside the latern itself. The hot air brough our hopes highly up into the sky and faded slowly into the beautiful night with the guide of the big round moon.
I'm so happy to have my friends with me.. Our love to each other shall exist eternally with our spirits. My friend, saranghae~!(I love you~) ^__________________^ ~
Monday, February 15, 2010
Happy Lunar New Year :D
(All photoes were taken by H/P)
First of all, happy new year~!! ^____^
Hope bad luck will be gone and good luck be coming in this whole new year! Wish everyone a happy and lucky year!!!
Happy new year to my beloved parents, brothers, friends in Singapore, friends in Malaysia, friends in Taiwan and friends in net!
Special congrats to my idol Yunho hyung and his fellow members of TVXQ. Good luck to SHINee's everyone and SNSD's noona!
Finally, thanks for all the bad lucks that had been annoying for quite a while.. I appreciate all bad things that happened on me, because of that, I learnt my weaknesses and mistakes!
Going to be in my new school after 7 days.. I'm ready! As I promised to myself, I will work harder this year!
Some photoes taken at the restaurant yesterday with my family...
Well then, enjoy your new year holidays~! ^__^!
Hope bad luck will be gone and good luck be coming in this whole new year! Wish everyone a happy and lucky year!!!
Happy new year to my beloved parents, brothers, friends in Singapore, friends in Malaysia, friends in Taiwan and friends in net!
Special congrats to my idol Yunho hyung and his fellow members of TVXQ. Good luck to SHINee's everyone and SNSD's noona!
Finally, thanks for all the bad lucks that had been annoying for quite a while.. I appreciate all bad things that happened on me, because of that, I learnt my weaknesses and mistakes!
Going to be in my new school after 7 days.. I'm ready! As I promised to myself, I will work harder this year!
Some photoes taken at the restaurant yesterday with my family...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I'm a fortunate kid after all..
After reading so many scripes about TVXQ's hardship and difficult life, I came to realized that I had too many things to apologize to as well as the things I should appreciate to..
I'm not in a good mood now, probably angrying, because of my childishness and foolishness.. I always complain for lots of things.. Like recently I had been very unlucky, I said myself wasn't fortunate at all.. I thought people couldn't understand my situation, but actually they did all the time. My parents had predicted my results would be bad after leaving the two of us in Singapore alone. At first I thought they just didn't know how I care for my exam. But now, when I think back, my so-called'hard work' was nothing but a shit.. People always said we're lucky to be born. Come to think of it, my brother and I are indeed very lucky kids. My parents never starve us. They did all they can to let us study in Singapore, knowing the facts that it would be a great cost, they insisted to. Just how many kids could have parents like I had in my life? I laugh to myslef...
YooChun, Yunho, JaeJoong.. After knowing their story behind the scences.. I thought,' How could I even had the thought of being difficult is all so usual and seems nothing much to celebrities? I thought they should have prepared and get used to the hardship they met. Shame on me.. I'm all so selfish...'
Knowing the facts that I am so much lucky than lots of people, I think I should put in more affords on my studies.. Maybe it's time not to enjoy those lovely and sweet video clips made for wonderful fantasy. I learnt my lesson.
Humble is all I need now.. I shall stop calling those people working hard for life The poor and find out the many good things from them and learn from what I could see, hear and feel. I have been living up myself as the top of all human races, though I don't make it too obvious, but I SHALL wake up! I have so much to learn..
I still have a long way to go.. My friends, if you're reading this, let's work hard together! I may always depend on you guys.. But at the same time, if you guys need me, I will always give my 100% power to help you too.
Love those who love me~ x)
I'm not in a good mood now, probably angrying, because of my childishness and foolishness.. I always complain for lots of things.. Like recently I had been very unlucky, I said myself wasn't fortunate at all.. I thought people couldn't understand my situation, but actually they did all the time. My parents had predicted my results would be bad after leaving the two of us in Singapore alone. At first I thought they just didn't know how I care for my exam. But now, when I think back, my so-called'hard work' was nothing but a shit.. People always said we're lucky to be born. Come to think of it, my brother and I are indeed very lucky kids. My parents never starve us. They did all they can to let us study in Singapore, knowing the facts that it would be a great cost, they insisted to. Just how many kids could have parents like I had in my life? I laugh to myslef...
YooChun, Yunho, JaeJoong.. After knowing their story behind the scences.. I thought,' How could I even had the thought of being difficult is all so usual and seems nothing much to celebrities? I thought they should have prepared and get used to the hardship they met. Shame on me.. I'm all so selfish...'
Knowing the facts that I am so much lucky than lots of people, I think I should put in more affords on my studies.. Maybe it's time not to enjoy those lovely and sweet video clips made for wonderful fantasy. I learnt my lesson.
Humble is all I need now.. I shall stop calling those people working hard for life The poor and find out the many good things from them and learn from what I could see, hear and feel. I have been living up myself as the top of all human races, though I don't make it too obvious, but I SHALL wake up! I have so much to learn..
I still have a long way to go.. My friends, if you're reading this, let's work hard together! I may always depend on you guys.. But at the same time, if you guys need me, I will always give my 100% power to help you too.
Love those who love me~ x)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
I'm a fortunate kid? Hell no...
A lot of bad things happened to my family and I recently. I got myself wounded during the trip to Singapore. My brother and I were trapped at the middle of two country for some reason. Though we were finally back to Malaysia saftly. However, with totally exausted mind and body, Shao En finally got sick yesterday. The trip back to Singapore was like a nightmare to me.. To be honest, I was really scared, but my brother was with me so I kept telling myself not to give up or just be scared of these little things.
And I thought everything has ended, but it isn't. My family is constantly losing some little amount of money. Usually it isn't something so important. But considering the continuning loses, we found it was something we must really aware of. Mom looks really scary (Seems annoying to me) these day. We went to my new school this morning and spent 20k for my school fees and some other charges.. 20k.. How scary.. I just couldn't look at my mom, I felt as if I did something wrong to her. I got to work harder, harder and harder..
Yesterday, I walked to Tesco because I need to print my passort photoes. It took me 4 hours. Not a big deal? Yeah.. Only if I wasn't told to go to the wrong way after waiting for a stupid bus for half and an hour. After spending so much time, I finally got back home. During my way home, I thought I could have got robbed or killed by some Malay bikers or some Chinese robbers since I had been extremely unlucky these day... Who knows? Haha..
Somehow, when I was resting on my bed with my eyes closed yesterday. I thought, 'I'm back.. I got my wound cured even though Shao En got sick, I sucessfully brough him back to mom anyway..'
I don't know.. Whenever these bad things happened on me, I suppose to get angry and blame for nothing, but at the end, I ended up with no hatred in mind. I just refused to think and act that way.. I told myself to stand up and fight. I can't afford to lose. Anger means nothing and work nothing on my unfortunate life. And so, I clam myself and stand up again.
People around always say I'm a fortunate kid. My dad is rich(?) and my mom is kind(?). Hmpt.. They knew nothing. I hate myself being born differently. If I was born poor, I would have got lots of 'A' because I have NO PSP and COMPUTER in my life. Things get confused when people start asking me to thank for my fortuante life, but to me, how? They don't understand...
Hope everything would get better.. Cheers for myself!
And I thought everything has ended, but it isn't. My family is constantly losing some little amount of money. Usually it isn't something so important. But considering the continuning loses, we found it was something we must really aware of. Mom looks really scary (Seems annoying to me) these day. We went to my new school this morning and spent 20k for my school fees and some other charges.. 20k.. How scary.. I just couldn't look at my mom, I felt as if I did something wrong to her. I got to work harder, harder and harder..
Yesterday, I walked to Tesco because I need to print my passort photoes. It took me 4 hours. Not a big deal? Yeah.. Only if I wasn't told to go to the wrong way after waiting for a stupid bus for half and an hour. After spending so much time, I finally got back home. During my way home, I thought I could have got robbed or killed by some Malay bikers or some Chinese robbers since I had been extremely unlucky these day... Who knows? Haha..
Somehow, when I was resting on my bed with my eyes closed yesterday. I thought, 'I'm back.. I got my wound cured even though Shao En got sick, I sucessfully brough him back to mom anyway..'
I don't know.. Whenever these bad things happened on me, I suppose to get angry and blame for nothing, but at the end, I ended up with no hatred in mind. I just refused to think and act that way.. I told myself to stand up and fight. I can't afford to lose. Anger means nothing and work nothing on my unfortunate life. And so, I clam myself and stand up again.
People around always say I'm a fortunate kid. My dad is rich(?) and my mom is kind(?). Hmpt.. They knew nothing. I hate myself being born differently. If I was born poor, I would have got lots of 'A' because I have NO PSP and COMPUTER in my life. Things get confused when people start asking me to thank for my fortuante life, but to me, how? They don't understand...
Hope everything would get better.. Cheers for myself!
Friday, January 29, 2010
What do I know music so far?
The music I'm going to talk about isn't classical music.
Ok, here's my views for 'Music at different country'
There's only one reason I'm so into KPOP ( Korean pop ) is that they always surprise me with their dance moves and songs. I think singers in Korea really play an crucial role in promoting their country's culture. For what I've seen on youtube's comments, many starting to get known of Korea because they love and support their favourite Kpop star. And ofcourse, I'm one of them who enjoys so much listening to their music.
My parents really hate me for loving Korean's music because they thought I, a Taiwanese, shouldn't pay too much attention for other country's fasion and music instead of listening to our own country's production of music. But to me, I have the right to decide what is good to hear and what is not and unfortunately for them, I think Kpop is much better than Tpop.
I've done a reserch on 'Music in other country' and I found some interesting facts.
In Taiwan, most singers are the solo-type. After seeing so many new album being published recently, I found most of the covers of solo-type albums are only singer with a very simple background which I think they got 0 attraction for me to find them good to listen to and interesting to know about them. Ofcourse there's group singers and Lollipop. I think they did a very good job. But when it come to Korea, I see too many of them..
In Singapore, many singers go to Taiwan at the end. Simply because Singapore is too small for them. Am I right on that point? In fact, Singapore is a small island. Although she's more sucessful compare with most of the country, despite of the land she has, it's too small and narrow for Singaporean singers. I've seen so many singers went to Taiwan but only a few of them became famous there. The person I'm talking is JJ Lin, who made a great sold-out for his latest album'100 days' in Taiwan.
In China, I only know Qi Xiao Fu. Don't know, don't care... Unlike Singapore, China's toooooooooo big. The singers there don't even have to go oversea. With 14 billions of people who could earn them lots of money, no reason they have got to promote their names and songs to other country.. So I don't know much about them.
In Malaysia, I see many singers, but I know none of them. Their music market is similar but smaller than Taiwan. So in the end, my views on them end up with the same as Taiwan, but somewhat poorer.. No offense. I love great music. It doesn't matter where the music from if the music is good to hear. But so far no songs in Malaysia had sucessfully caught my heart. I do feel sorry for that..
In Japan, they're as good as Korea. And somehow I think they're a bit better because the singers there do not get abusive words from their company and violence from their superior. I read, and probably will continue to read till the end of the world, of how bad the superior of many singers in Korea were. Fans aren't stupid, they're indeed incredibly smart and caring. I watched and read many comments and video on youtube and something shocked me. Famous singers like DBSK, Shinwha, H.O.T get beaten up by the head lead man of their working company. Their earns for album is low and work like a cow everyday just for the good of the company. But what they got behind their hard work is something cruel and inhuman. If you like to know more about it, go youtube and search SM entertainment.
So anyway, talking about Kpop, I shall describle it as 'fantastic done'! I'm sure many of you know the song 'Sorry sorry' from Super junior. I find many kpop music videos are always fill with amazing dance moves and unique music styles. Songs like 'Tell me your wish' from SNSD, 'Abracadabra' from brown eyed girl, 'Ring ding dong' from SHINee are good examples. You see? Why western people are also crazy about kpop? Because their country's singers don't dance! They only sing! I'm not saying they're lacking of dancing skill. In fact, many great dancers are from westen country. But so far from the music I watched on youtube, I seldom see western singers dance in their mv.
Dances and musics are one. With both, music is alive. Korean did a very good job in expressing their sense of fasion and style of music. And that's why I'm so in love with them.
Thanks for reading~! :)
Ok, here's my views for 'Music at different country'
There's only one reason I'm so into KPOP ( Korean pop ) is that they always surprise me with their dance moves and songs. I think singers in Korea really play an crucial role in promoting their country's culture. For what I've seen on youtube's comments, many starting to get known of Korea because they love and support their favourite Kpop star. And ofcourse, I'm one of them who enjoys so much listening to their music.
My parents really hate me for loving Korean's music because they thought I, a Taiwanese, shouldn't pay too much attention for other country's fasion and music instead of listening to our own country's production of music. But to me, I have the right to decide what is good to hear and what is not and unfortunately for them, I think Kpop is much better than Tpop.
I've done a reserch on 'Music in other country' and I found some interesting facts.
In Taiwan, most singers are the solo-type. After seeing so many new album being published recently, I found most of the covers of solo-type albums are only singer with a very simple background which I think they got 0 attraction for me to find them good to listen to and interesting to know about them. Ofcourse there's group singers and Lollipop. I think they did a very good job. But when it come to Korea, I see too many of them..
In Singapore, many singers go to Taiwan at the end. Simply because Singapore is too small for them. Am I right on that point? In fact, Singapore is a small island. Although she's more sucessful compare with most of the country, despite of the land she has, it's too small and narrow for Singaporean singers. I've seen so many singers went to Taiwan but only a few of them became famous there. The person I'm talking is JJ Lin, who made a great sold-out for his latest album'100 days' in Taiwan.
In China, I only know Qi Xiao Fu. Don't know, don't care... Unlike Singapore, China's toooooooooo big. The singers there don't even have to go oversea. With 14 billions of people who could earn them lots of money, no reason they have got to promote their names and songs to other country.. So I don't know much about them.
In Malaysia, I see many singers, but I know none of them. Their music market is similar but smaller than Taiwan. So in the end, my views on them end up with the same as Taiwan, but somewhat poorer.. No offense. I love great music. It doesn't matter where the music from if the music is good to hear. But so far no songs in Malaysia had sucessfully caught my heart. I do feel sorry for that..
In Japan, they're as good as Korea. And somehow I think they're a bit better because the singers there do not get abusive words from their company and violence from their superior. I read, and probably will continue to read till the end of the world, of how bad the superior of many singers in Korea were. Fans aren't stupid, they're indeed incredibly smart and caring. I watched and read many comments and video on youtube and something shocked me. Famous singers like DBSK, Shinwha, H.O.T get beaten up by the head lead man of their working company. Their earns for album is low and work like a cow everyday just for the good of the company. But what they got behind their hard work is something cruel and inhuman. If you like to know more about it, go youtube and search SM entertainment.
So anyway, talking about Kpop, I shall describle it as 'fantastic done'! I'm sure many of you know the song 'Sorry sorry' from Super junior. I find many kpop music videos are always fill with amazing dance moves and unique music styles. Songs like 'Tell me your wish' from SNSD, 'Abracadabra' from brown eyed girl, 'Ring ding dong' from SHINee are good examples. You see? Why western people are also crazy about kpop? Because their country's singers don't dance! They only sing! I'm not saying they're lacking of dancing skill. In fact, many great dancers are from westen country. But so far from the music I watched on youtube, I seldom see western singers dance in their mv.
Dances and musics are one. With both, music is alive. Korean did a very good job in expressing their sense of fasion and style of music. And that's why I'm so in love with them.
Thanks for reading~! :)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I must be crazy..
Just oh my gosh.. That person is so gorgeous..
I thought I almost died from excitement.. I just couldn't believe that I saw somone who seems so acctractive to me. The hell.. That was the first time I had this kind of excitement and the desire to know about a person so badly.
Those eyes.. Was catching my sights. The moment we made our eye contact, I thought, 'Damn, what does the person see on me？' I didn't dress up well that time. I was lazy making up my hair and wearing those fasion clothes when I woke up this morning with only 3 hours slept. I never thought I would met a beautiful person at such a small clinic! I blamed myself for not taking care my own image well..
I wasn't sick. I was taking some health check with my brother. When I stepped out the room, I saw the person sitting on the chair and waiting for doctor's call for consultation. I quickly grabbed Shao En's hand and walked to the back corner. 'Oh my god, Shao En, you saw that person?' I whispered. 'Yeah. Gogeous, huh?' Shao En whispered back. When I got back on my sit, I looked at that person. That person seems unhappy. I think yeah, it would be weired to see people look happy in such an enviroment..
God damn that my mom was just next to me.. I think it's not a good idea to let her know my attention to that person. I'm afraid she might gone mad.
I don't know.. I just can't tell people.. It's not the time to tell everyone the truth.. Though it's tough using the word ' person ', but I think one day, I can write whatever I want in mind. That is when I truely let my parents know what I've been keeping from them for so many years....
I thought I almost died from excitement.. I just couldn't believe that I saw somone who seems so acctractive to me. The hell.. That was the first time I had this kind of excitement and the desire to know about a person so badly.
Those eyes.. Was catching my sights. The moment we made our eye contact, I thought, 'Damn, what does the person see on me？' I didn't dress up well that time. I was lazy making up my hair and wearing those fasion clothes when I woke up this morning with only 3 hours slept. I never thought I would met a beautiful person at such a small clinic! I blamed myself for not taking care my own image well..
I wasn't sick. I was taking some health check with my brother. When I stepped out the room, I saw the person sitting on the chair and waiting for doctor's call for consultation. I quickly grabbed Shao En's hand and walked to the back corner. 'Oh my god, Shao En, you saw that person?' I whispered. 'Yeah. Gogeous, huh?' Shao En whispered back. When I got back on my sit, I looked at that person. That person seems unhappy. I think yeah, it would be weired to see people look happy in such an enviroment..
God damn that my mom was just next to me.. I think it's not a good idea to let her know my attention to that person. I'm afraid she might gone mad.
I don't know.. I just can't tell people.. It's not the time to tell everyone the truth.. Though it's tough using the word ' person ', but I think one day, I can write whatever I want in mind. That is when I truely let my parents know what I've been keeping from them for so many years....
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Turn 18
Finally, the day I grow up to 18 has come.
To me, I think today is a special day for me. Not only that I turned 18, can do whatever I want, watch porn, find sex, but also the day I get to refresh myself.
I remenber my previous birthday was like a normal kid had with their family. I'd asked for present, party and cakes. But since I'm 18 now, I don't think I still can ask for that, even for my pocket money..
I started to think that what does turning 18 really means to me..
Think I got to find a job to get myself money? Yeah, I think I had lots to do now. Yes, I find myself are capable in doing a lot of things after I turned 18. Not only some regular stuffs I couldn't do at the past but also to ready for the society.
Maybe I've gone too far. I bet those kids who are reading this may not be able to understand. Haha..
I never hope that there'll be any birthday celebration for me. Though my brother tested me few days ago to see if I remenbered today, but I told him not to do anything for me. I mean, why? I don't need those things now. All I need now is to study hard and remains humble until I get old. A girlfriend? Yeah, it would be nice.
Anyway, congrats myself for turning 18. Altough I never tell anyone about today, but I wonder who really remenber this day. Hmn... -___-..
To me, I think today is a special day for me. Not only that I turned 18, can do whatever I want, watch porn, find sex, but also the day I get to refresh myself.
I remenber my previous birthday was like a normal kid had with their family. I'd asked for present, party and cakes. But since I'm 18 now, I don't think I still can ask for that, even for my pocket money..
I started to think that what does turning 18 really means to me..
Think I got to find a job to get myself money? Yeah, I think I had lots to do now. Yes, I find myself are capable in doing a lot of things after I turned 18. Not only some regular stuffs I couldn't do at the past but also to ready for the society.
Maybe I've gone too far. I bet those kids who are reading this may not be able to understand. Haha..
I never hope that there'll be any birthday celebration for me. Though my brother tested me few days ago to see if I remenbered today, but I told him not to do anything for me. I mean, why? I don't need those things now. All I need now is to study hard and remains humble until I get old. A girlfriend? Yeah, it would be nice.
Anyway, congrats myself for turning 18. Altough I never tell anyone about today, but I wonder who really remenber this day. Hmn... -___-..
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I'm a fool after all..
I thought I was born specially to this world. In fact, I'm not that worthy. I'm not talking about my life, but my attitude to my life.
Maybe it's time for me to contemplate my own future, seriously.
I'm really a fool.. I thought my parents don't understand me at all, but things had become as I was the one who don't understand them.. I feel really sorry to my parents. They love me so much but sadly I had disappointed them.
I find myself really stupid, because I used to find excuses for my mistakes. Mum said maybe I got my talking talents from dad and her. A person who can't listen and used to find excuses can hardly success. I always remenber these words and yet I had failed to know them deeply..
I'm really really bad, I thought I will never make my parents cry, but I was wrong. I'm a bad son, I didn't played my role of studies well.. What can I say? This time, I shall never make any excuses for my failure.
Fortunetly, just like what mom told me, I'm smart. I learn from my mistakes although it rarely happens. But I'd hope I can change from now on. This time, I will not allow myself to fail.
As always, I will give my everyday some hope so that I could live a happy life, but differently, I will also change my attitude. The first step, I shall become a humble man. Yes, I'm always full of myself. Though I'm smart, but my smartness blind me.. Second, I shall treat my brother well. My tones to him wasn't in manner. He mentioned to me before, but I never listened. Think I got to say many sorry to him. Third, I have the need to know what I'm really want now and yes, I think I found it.
Nothing is easy in this world, even a small move could change your everyday, every life. I have learnt. I shall always remind myself not too selfish, think for others, and work extremely hard for my studies. For my current grade, I'd need lots of affords.
Time to give myself a hit on face. And then after all, I hope one day, I can really become an independent kid who doesn't worry their parents. Do as I said to myself.
Taking vows is riskful, only if you're not confident for taking full responsibilities to your words and yourself. Yes, I would like to vow for my future.
I hope my friends will always pull me back to work because I'm always forgetful and stubborn. But thing has to changed by now.
God bless me..
Maybe it's time for me to contemplate my own future, seriously.
I'm really a fool.. I thought my parents don't understand me at all, but things had become as I was the one who don't understand them.. I feel really sorry to my parents. They love me so much but sadly I had disappointed them.
I find myself really stupid, because I used to find excuses for my mistakes. Mum said maybe I got my talking talents from dad and her. A person who can't listen and used to find excuses can hardly success. I always remenber these words and yet I had failed to know them deeply..
I'm really really bad, I thought I will never make my parents cry, but I was wrong. I'm a bad son, I didn't played my role of studies well.. What can I say? This time, I shall never make any excuses for my failure.
Fortunetly, just like what mom told me, I'm smart. I learn from my mistakes although it rarely happens. But I'd hope I can change from now on. This time, I will not allow myself to fail.
As always, I will give my everyday some hope so that I could live a happy life, but differently, I will also change my attitude. The first step, I shall become a humble man. Yes, I'm always full of myself. Though I'm smart, but my smartness blind me.. Second, I shall treat my brother well. My tones to him wasn't in manner. He mentioned to me before, but I never listened. Think I got to say many sorry to him. Third, I have the need to know what I'm really want now and yes, I think I found it.
Nothing is easy in this world, even a small move could change your everyday, every life. I have learnt. I shall always remind myself not too selfish, think for others, and work extremely hard for my studies. For my current grade, I'd need lots of affords.
Time to give myself a hit on face. And then after all, I hope one day, I can really become an independent kid who doesn't worry their parents. Do as I said to myself.
Taking vows is riskful, only if you're not confident for taking full responsibilities to your words and yourself. Yes, I would like to vow for my future.
I hope my friends will always pull me back to work because I'm always forgetful and stubborn. But thing has to changed by now.
God bless me..
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Between children and parents..
I was born a bit differently.
I lived with my mother when I was young. As I grew up, I shared my problems I met outside with my mom. Unfortunetly, if I had fight with her, I could only shared my problems with my little brother or I might got crazy guts.
Now, I live with my parents. As I had turned 17, gonna be 18 after a week, I had lots to say. And ofcourse, sometime it clashs with my parents' ideas, especially my mom. When it happened, a family's dad plays an important role. He becomes a bridge between a mother and her son.
If that so, why there're kids who still can't reach their parents?
For my example, my dad is definetly a rotting wodden bridge. He only cares how the people at the sides do instead of realizing his rotting body. When people try to cross through him in order to reach other people, he will blame them for not walking properly. Young adults who don't have a nice bridge, they would seek help from their friends. Here's a big problem, parents always think that the only reason why my children had changed was because of the friends he made. Just how stupid they are, they couldn't figured out where the real problem is..
Anyway, I'm a clever kid. Luckily, I don't have bad friends, so at least I was grown up half-healthy, both my body and mind.
I sent a SMS to my dad this morning. That message was a chance I gave to them. Only if they don't read or maybe they don't really care, or I'll have nothing else to do with them. I maybe a little too much, but am I wrong?
I lived with my mother when I was young. As I grew up, I shared my problems I met outside with my mom. Unfortunetly, if I had fight with her, I could only shared my problems with my little brother or I might got crazy guts.
Now, I live with my parents. As I had turned 17, gonna be 18 after a week, I had lots to say. And ofcourse, sometime it clashs with my parents' ideas, especially my mom. When it happened, a family's dad plays an important role. He becomes a bridge between a mother and her son.
If that so, why there're kids who still can't reach their parents?
For my example, my dad is definetly a rotting wodden bridge. He only cares how the people at the sides do instead of realizing his rotting body. When people try to cross through him in order to reach other people, he will blame them for not walking properly. Young adults who don't have a nice bridge, they would seek help from their friends. Here's a big problem, parents always think that the only reason why my children had changed was because of the friends he made. Just how stupid they are, they couldn't figured out where the real problem is..
Anyway, I'm a clever kid. Luckily, I don't have bad friends, so at least I was grown up half-healthy, both my body and mind.
I sent a SMS to my dad this morning. That message was a chance I gave to them. Only if they don't read or maybe they don't really care, or I'll have nothing else to do with them. I maybe a little too much, but am I wrong?
孩子與父母之間...
我出身的家庭有一點特別.
小時候, 我都跟媽媽住. 有時如果在外遇到困難, 我會和他說. 如果不幸的我和他吵架了, 我會跟年幼的弟弟講, 不然我可能早就瘋了.
長大後, 跟爸媽一起住了. 因為有了很多自己的想法, 有時難免會和母親有點爭執. 這時, 父親就會扮演兩者之橋樑. 相對的, 如果是父親, 母親則會扮演這種腳色.
既然如此, 怎嚜還會有年輕人無法與父母溝通的呢?
是的, 就我來講, 我爸爸絕對是一條爛橋. 他只在乎兩岸的人過得好不好, 卻沒注意到自己正一天一天崩塌. 當兩岸的人想見面時, 他卻責怪對方不好好走, 而忽略自身是關鍵的問題. 沒橋樑的人, 只好跟朋友溝通. 這時問題來了! 有的父母會認為自己孩子的問題是外面朋友所致. 也不知道有多少這種愚蠢的父母親手毀了自己的兒子.
簡單來說, 我是很聰明地. 也感謝我身邊沒壞朋友, 我才能如此半健康地長大.
我今天傳了依封簡訊給我爸. 那是我和他們之間的機會. 我今後, 可能, 還是會不斷的給予他們機會, 但, 可能在他們眼裡連屎都不如? 這樣講很不孝.. 但我說得有錯嗎?
小時候, 我都跟媽媽住. 有時如果在外遇到困難, 我會和他說. 如果不幸的我和他吵架了, 我會跟年幼的弟弟講, 不然我可能早就瘋了.
長大後, 跟爸媽一起住了. 因為有了很多自己的想法, 有時難免會和母親有點爭執. 這時, 父親就會扮演兩者之橋樑. 相對的, 如果是父親, 母親則會扮演這種腳色.
既然如此, 怎嚜還會有年輕人無法與父母溝通的呢?
是的, 就我來講, 我爸爸絕對是一條爛橋. 他只在乎兩岸的人過得好不好, 卻沒注意到自己正一天一天崩塌. 當兩岸的人想見面時, 他卻責怪對方不好好走, 而忽略自身是關鍵的問題. 沒橋樑的人, 只好跟朋友溝通. 這時問題來了! 有的父母會認為自己孩子的問題是外面朋友所致. 也不知道有多少這種愚蠢的父母親手毀了自己的兒子.
簡單來說, 我是很聰明地. 也感謝我身邊沒壞朋友, 我才能如此半健康地長大.
我今天傳了依封簡訊給我爸. 那是我和他們之間的機會. 我今後, 可能, 還是會不斷的給予他們機會, 但, 可能在他們眼裡連屎都不如? 這樣講很不孝.. 但我說得有錯嗎?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Unreasonable
It was happened yesterday.
I was awakened from the noise that my father made. He was talking on a phone. I wasn't sure who it was, but the only thing I knew was that he wasn't happy about the person next to the call. So I thought he must be very tired recently.
Dad wanted us to clean the house before mom come back from Taiwan. I agreed with him as I thought mom won't be happy if she see the mess we made during the days she wasn't with us.
Shao En did nothing at the evening, it was I who cleaned the house. I swept the floor and put everything in place. At the same time, I was thinking of what to say once she's back.
Ok, she finally got back, but something made me felt that she was totally unreasonable. Firstly, her tones, she made me tought that she wasn't wanted to talk to me. Secondly, she bought a book for me.
To be honest, I don't read books, especially those which seemed totally useless to me.
I think it's a waste buying books for me.
She also asked us to sleep when 22.30. Am I crazy? 22.30? Why should I? My night time was just started!
Dad told me mum was very tired so he hoped I didn't mind for her words or anything.
Well, I thought dad was tired, too. Because I was so sure that mom was not only tired but had some problem with me. She can't communicate with me.
Can't communitcate=Can't understand
Worse, I don't think she wants to understand me.
We actually can talk like friends. I always find a right time and try to reach her. She is the same, but always pick a wrong time. Like what I had told her many times before that she doesn't listen to the others, even untill now. Or maybe, she doesn't understand my words?
She always think I'm trying to be a rebellion but sadly, I'm not. It is she who likes to think this way, I personally do not wanted to be like this. So anyway, she seems like she quite enjoy living in her own world.
I was awakened from the noise that my father made. He was talking on a phone. I wasn't sure who it was, but the only thing I knew was that he wasn't happy about the person next to the call. So I thought he must be very tired recently.
Dad wanted us to clean the house before mom come back from Taiwan. I agreed with him as I thought mom won't be happy if she see the mess we made during the days she wasn't with us.
Shao En did nothing at the evening, it was I who cleaned the house. I swept the floor and put everything in place. At the same time, I was thinking of what to say once she's back.
Ok, she finally got back, but something made me felt that she was totally unreasonable. Firstly, her tones, she made me tought that she wasn't wanted to talk to me. Secondly, she bought a book for me.
To be honest, I don't read books, especially those which seemed totally useless to me.
I think it's a waste buying books for me.
She also asked us to sleep when 22.30. Am I crazy? 22.30? Why should I? My night time was just started!
Dad told me mum was very tired so he hoped I didn't mind for her words or anything.
Well, I thought dad was tired, too. Because I was so sure that mom was not only tired but had some problem with me. She can't communicate with me.
Can't communitcate=Can't understand
Worse, I don't think she wants to understand me.
We actually can talk like friends. I always find a right time and try to reach her. She is the same, but always pick a wrong time. Like what I had told her many times before that she doesn't listen to the others, even untill now. Or maybe, she doesn't understand my words?
She always think I'm trying to be a rebellion but sadly, I'm not. It is she who likes to think this way, I personally do not wanted to be like this. So anyway, she seems like she quite enjoy living in her own world.
莫名奇妙
整件事發生在昨天.
一早就被爸爸的聲音吵醒, 我想他最近蠻多煩惱地, 所以想說算了. 抱著有點煩的心情起了床.
爸要我們把家裡整理整理. 也對, 媽媽今天要回來, 如果沒整理好她又要忙(罵?)了.
整個下午紹恩什麼都沒做. 掃地, 垃圾, 整理雜物都是我做地. 不過我想我昨天可能瘋了, 沒跟他計較這件事, ㄏㄏ.
整理時就想說要以什麼心情來見媽媽. 結果和我預想的不一樣.
她是回來了, 那時我還在睡覺. 讓我覺得莫名奇妙的事, 我什麼都沒做, 可是他對我的態度有些奇怪.
我不是自吹, 有時我真得認未人超容易看穿地. 不管從口氣也好, 表情也好. 人實在很簡單, 而我也是.
我還以為他瘋了呢, 居然要我十點半睡覺. 十點半? 又不是小學, 十點半我幹嗎? -_____-
還買了書回來給我看. 老實說, 我覺得超浪費錢的. 一, 我不愛看書, 尤其是那些開發創意或了解自我的書. 二, 我連學韓文的書都不敢買, 連爸爸都說要學要我自己去圖書館借.
爸爸說媽媽可能累了, 所以要我別想太多....
我想得是很多, 但是都是對的. 媽媽是累了, 可是同時, 他也無法跟我溝通.
無法溝通=無法了解
更糟的是我認為他不想了解.
我們母子之間其實無所不談, 我總會選擇正確的時機跟他聊聊. 所以其實這些問題我早就和他討論過了. 就像我之前跟他說的一樣, 他不會聽人講話. 現在也是. 講難聽點, 他聽不懂?
她好像一直認為我再和他作對, 但我得澄清, 我, 不愛和人做對來製造自己麻煩, 而他, 卻愛認為我和他作對. 所以這一切一切, 都不過是他沉醉於自己的世界霸了.
一早就被爸爸的聲音吵醒, 我想他最近蠻多煩惱地, 所以想說算了. 抱著有點煩的心情起了床.
爸要我們把家裡整理整理. 也對, 媽媽今天要回來, 如果沒整理好她又要忙(罵?)了.
整個下午紹恩什麼都沒做. 掃地, 垃圾, 整理雜物都是我做地. 不過我想我昨天可能瘋了, 沒跟他計較這件事, ㄏㄏ.
整理時就想說要以什麼心情來見媽媽. 結果和我預想的不一樣.
她是回來了, 那時我還在睡覺. 讓我覺得莫名奇妙的事, 我什麼都沒做, 可是他對我的態度有些奇怪.
我不是自吹, 有時我真得認未人超容易看穿地. 不管從口氣也好, 表情也好. 人實在很簡單, 而我也是.
我還以為他瘋了呢, 居然要我十點半睡覺. 十點半? 又不是小學, 十點半我幹嗎? -_____-
還買了書回來給我看. 老實說, 我覺得超浪費錢的. 一, 我不愛看書, 尤其是那些開發創意或了解自我的書. 二, 我連學韓文的書都不敢買, 連爸爸都說要學要我自己去圖書館借.
爸爸說媽媽可能累了, 所以要我別想太多....
我想得是很多, 但是都是對的. 媽媽是累了, 可是同時, 他也無法跟我溝通.
無法溝通=無法了解
更糟的是我認為他不想了解.
我們母子之間其實無所不談, 我總會選擇正確的時機跟他聊聊. 所以其實這些問題我早就和他討論過了. 就像我之前跟他說的一樣, 他不會聽人講話. 現在也是. 講難聽點, 他聽不懂?
她好像一直認為我再和他作對, 但我得澄清, 我, 不愛和人做對來製造自己麻煩, 而他, 卻愛認為我和他作對. 所以這一切一切, 都不過是他沉醉於自己的世界霸了.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Talking of sufficiency in Malaysia
I really have to say this.. Malaysia is really lacking of sufficiency! Either at police station or ICA, none of them satisfy me! Or not only for myself but to all of the people in Malaysia! A trip to either one of them took me a whole day! -_______-
Come to think about it, ICA is ever better, the officers there quite used to English. Somehow I think they're better than I did FOR NOW. xD
Gotta go back to Singapore before 10th or else I might get another panalty...
Come to think about it, ICA is ever better, the officers there quite used to English. Somehow I think they're better than I did FOR NOW. xD
Gotta go back to Singapore before 10th or else I might get another panalty...
說到效率之馬來西亞篇!
不得不抱怨下, 這裡的行政效率實在超爛的! 警察局也好, 移民廳也罷, 沒一個有效率! 光临一次就得做個老半天, 沒一次快的. -_________-
想一想, 移民廳好多了............... 至少英文不錯.
10號以前要回新, 不然又得罰錢呢!
想一想, 移民廳好多了............... 至少英文不錯.
10號以前要回新, 不然又得罰錢呢!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
My very first post.
I always had lots of complains. Sometimes it just out of my business, but I just wanna speak it out.
Just because I had too much to say, I decided to make a blogger.
Not because I don't have friends. Sometimes I feel like it's difficult to tell them.
Speaking of friends, yesterday, Winnie made everyone chose a poker card with number 1-7 to see who would be the next dancing teacher.
I always believe that I'm not a lucky kid, even till now, whenever it came to some stuffs like this, I'm always the one got picked by fate. ><
For those who likes SHINee, and would like to learn their latest dance moves, follow this link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8M0hRfPRho
Going to ICA tomorrow. Hope that I can continue dancing during the time I go back to Singapore, until the day of teaching. Please anticipate!
Just because I had too much to say, I decided to make a blogger.
Not because I don't have friends. Sometimes I feel like it's difficult to tell them.
Speaking of friends, yesterday, Winnie made everyone chose a poker card with number 1-7 to see who would be the next dancing teacher.
I always believe that I'm not a lucky kid, even till now, whenever it came to some stuffs like this, I'm always the one got picked by fate. ><
For those who likes SHINee, and would like to learn their latest dance moves, follow this link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8M0hRfPRho
Going to ICA tomorrow. Hope that I can continue dancing during the time I go back to Singapore, until the day of teaching. Please anticipate!
我的第一Po
我的意見超多的, 有時是多管閒事, 但還是很想說.
因為有太多要說的話要說, 所以就做了Blogger.
不是因為我沒朋友.. 只是有時無法對他們說. 想說寫來發發洩一下也不錯.
說到朋友, Winnie他們上星期六要大家抽籤, 抽到的下星期教跳舞.
我一直相信我的運氣不好, 鋼琴也好, 平常也好, 每次只要是不想被抽到的一定抽到我. ><
所以就中囉! 這一整個星期要凖備SHINee的Ring Ding Dong了.
老實說, 真的不容易.. 不知道多久沒跳舞了. 想在家練又怕老爸知道以為我為SHINee瘋了. -____-
喜歡SHINee的, 想跳舞的話可以去這個Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8M0hRfPRho
明天要去移民廳了, 希望回新加坡這期間能持續練舞, 直到星期六的表演. 要期待喔!
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